Sunday, July 31, 2005
11:57 PM
The mini SR gathering
This is after so long that my jc friends finally got together to celebrate andrew's bday.3 gals and 4 boys. it used to be like this however tis time one of the guy is Rish. all the craps and jokes come from him and how we laugh man. its been such a long time thati hear stupid stuff and funny things haha. its really fun with all of them. although it doesbring back sum memories of the past, but i am glad noone mention about it. i think they justscared that i will be umcomfortable and sad so as to mention sumone. however today's gatheringis short but its sweet, cos i get to see them again. although there isn't much to tok aboutexcept skol and why the freaking spore skool system is so lousy(Rish's part) and about knowinghow to expand and factorise....... i still find that the old spirit of the individuals are still intact since the jc life. sometimes i hope to go back to the past but i know that by going thrgh itwill be difficult. i miss andrew too cos i really didn't get to tok to him but just gave him a hug.hasn't been toking to him for a long long time. since the day i left skol. only once in a while where we happen to see each other on the street. oh man i remembered all the stupid quarrels we had for the freaking PW in j1. how stupid haha... he still the same only that he is taller than me by alot and i dunno how it happen. well ppl do change :) yar i do admitt that i am reluctant to go out with themcos i am afraid. afraid of wat?! afraid of memories appearing to me. i dun wish to remember somestuff so i'm kind of afraid that by seeing them as i will not able to control myself. but i guessi can be ok with them haha. wat am i saying man. anyway today is my last day of fasting. hope that sum miraclecan happen in my life (I do really need it!).
i wish my life is perfect-`
MIRCale
wah... i am trying so hard to go online cos of the stupid connection haha. anyway i am so happy that i finally see the mag with me in it... um although i look very fierce but i guess its not bad liao lar.. anyway the pics i receives from my agents are not bad too haha... wah today i got headache in derrick's car. maybe the new smell i cannot stand it haha then i so sleepy when we went for supper.. anyway think i got food poisoning again cos i got stomach pain when i reach home. hai anway today service- miracle- quite interesting. the preacher say that we must heal ourselves and forgive those that have hurt us alot um.. i think he is right but i just couln't put down.. anyway i cried in service haha hope noone sees it... anyway i was so moody and skeptical nowadays with sum friends. hereby apologised to them please forgive me i dun been to be mean to u all but i really can't help it...
i wish my life is perfect-`
Saturday, July 30, 2005
1:59 AM
FIRST TIME-done
hey got this log done up. its quite tiring to do it but i guess thats the why to keep my thots online and so on. although i foresee that i will not be typing much cos of time nad work and the connection and lots of things lar but dun care lar... at least i have sumthing to do online better than looking at the ceiling and thinking of unhappy thoughts again. anyway i called this guy today haha dun know why i feel so excited haha... but i called him to check on sumthing lar.. think he is kind of cute but too bad i can't really think properly anyway. anyway he is cute lar but older than me .. um lets see whether we have the 'yuan' not haha:P
i wish my life is perfect-`
Composed poem
I like the way you love me, it makes me feel like the only one.
I like the way you look at me, with that 'girl' eyes you had.
I like the way you wet your hair, making all stand upright.
I like the way you dress, but I always crampled your shirt.
I like the way you learn a song, even though you had hard time understanding it.
I like the way you sing to me, because I know you mean every single words.
I like the way you sign your name, my name is on it too.
I like the way you can't decide, so that I can make the decision.
I like the way you wipe my tears, it drop because of you.
I like the way you joke, always making me laugh non-stop.
I like the way you give me things, even though i always scold you.
I like the way you are jealous, whenever I talk to my friends.
I like the way you disturb me, irritating but fun.
I like the way you feed me, because I am a lazy girl.
I like the way you hug me, making me feel ever important.
I like the way you surprise me, but I always know before-hand.
I like the way you use a vancard, drawing is a form of way to express.
I like the way you shoot, always saying that goal is for me.
I like the way you say sorry, even though I always say its of no use.
I like the way you kiss my cheeks, at the stairway to my home.
I like the way you say you love me, but I resist telling you that I feel the same.
I like the way you are, strong-headed just like me.
but
I dislike the way you lie, so many times but never change.
I dislike the way you forget me, forget the sweet sorrow past that we shared.
I dislike the way you scold me, with that hurtful words that stabbed into my heart.
I dislike the way you break my heart, into million pieces which can't be one again
and I dislike the way you promise, never ever fulfilled the simplest ones.
composed on the 13 july
i wish my life is perfect-`